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A walk with God

Thank you God for the gift of life...I know you are with me...


Everyday is a chance to walk with you... Thank you for everything and  for giving me the right attitude in every situation...


You have a plan for me and thank you very much for humbling me... The honing is painful but i trust you oh God. 

bUSY ME

On Sunday I am going to enter graduate school. I am going to study Master’s in Public Administration.

 I promise to do very well and exert   all my efforts into self improvement. My strength is for development and not for my husband’s habit.

My stumbling blocks is going to be my stairs up…I will just step into it... I will be very busy to have time for crying…

God have mercy on me. 

Getting out of hand

Yesterday…

My husband fetched me in the grocery store…as I entered the car I knew he got alcohol effect…for the first time he admitted that he got too many.

 I  just stared in disappointment and inhaled without exhaling a thousand times…trying to control his  speed in driving… thank God we arrived safe at home after numerous lined up accidents. I just let him sleep and did the laundry, brushed and cleaned the bathroom… my tears fell in my cheeks while doing the errands… times that I wish to have a father to discipline my husband. I feel like in a dome with me, myself and I, no one really cares for my situation.

I exhausted myself and dozed to sleep…this is going to be a habit I guess.

Early this morning I learned that   in their drinking session yesterday he was attacked by his drinking mate with a bolo.  The commotion though was controlled by my cousins… His drinking habit is getting out of hand and he might lose his life in irrelevant manner.

 I plan to brush the floor  of our whole house after office. 

Off Beam

I hate occasions, special occasions because I know that I will have to deal with different person.

Yes my loving husband seems to turn into stranger every time alcohol is in him. Considering my phobia with drunken person aggravates the situation. I cry in silence and sometimes in hysteria.

Just last Sunday my neighbor’s child celebrated his 1^st birthday, a license to drink for my husband. I forced him to go home as I noticed his over drinking. He kept on talking about his money spending   in my advantage and it really hurt me. I cried all night and got swollen eyes and because of that I decided not to go to office because my appearance will only reveal my situation.

 It surprised him why I wasn’t able to go to office and asked why I cried. He just laughed and admitted that he got out of control. He then promised over again not to do it but still insisting that he is not doing wrong.

Once I confessed my problem with a friend, I am not really happy with his drinking habits and she took it as if nothing was really wrong. My husband remains calm and sleeps after the drinking spree…though he is a quiet drinker, he drives a vehicle and he had put my life and other’s lives into danger many times because of that. Days after over drinking he will surely have asthma attack, cough and high blood pressure and still he will insist that he is not off beam.  

Oh Lord has mercy on me!

White Lies

In my younger years  my teacher taught me that when a person  ask you “How are You?”, you will answer back “ I am fine, thank you!”. The teaching emanates in my personality.

Every time a person inquires how I am doing ’I graciously say “Oh no worries”.

At this moment I am answering in view of brightening somebody’s day… not to impart the misery I am going through…talking about white lies.

Choice

I am sad…yes I am….but I am right…yes I am… Is it just alright to be right and sad about it? Talking about life choices.

Flores the Mayo

Month of May is month of flowers. Roman catholic celebrates it with flower offering to the image of Virgin Mary and ended with a parade of beauties that signifies the queens and saints. The Santacruzan which signifies the search of Queen Elena for the cross of Jesus is the final event in month of Flowers...
This religious practice, as tourism booster campaign of the province was practiced in Provincial Capitol where I work. Though employees with different faith like me got exemption to participate, my seniors asked me to be well rounded...well rounded means  joining every activity of the institution where I belong...Disaster on my part...My unconventional faith almost affected my professional standing. Though I became very vocal with my own beliefs of not bowing down to any idols and my apprehensions of God's rage with pagan practices ' I met  them half way. I gave in and I joined the event but I did not compromise my religious preference. I was  there like a tourist covering the event and an employee that supportive to the Provincial Capitol.
With due respect the world will be brighter if we accept those who love violet and those that prefers yellow...

Love for Breakfast

Good Morning...It was just last Sunday when I woke up with ready breakfast...a tasty pig knuckles cooked with bamboo shoots, a not that easy recipe to cook especially in the morning... I appreciate my husband's effort to impress me...I also love the food that he cooked...Thank you my husband for this another way of saying I love you!

High School Reunion

What's good with High School reunion is that you got to see old friends and feel the warmth of their usual friendship. The interest on how your classmates did and who among the lovers end up together. What I love with  our latest get together is the laughter that we once again shared and no one asked about careers and success as a person...We just ate together, played games and shared contact numbers... We all had hell of fun... 

Natalia my mother

Every mothers day I post pictures of greetings for my mom and praises for being such a real epitome of  best mother...But I know she didn't know about that. I am the only source of her internet information and I intentionally not show it to her..Why? I myself can't answer why... 

Weight Success

2008 up to present weight monitoring...

               


                                                                                                                                 
              It is no secret, my weight management problem.By just merely drinking water I am gaining pounds... Once my Aunty asked me the reason of staying fat and the question strike me... Little by little I increased my physical activities, then I maintained a certain slimming coffee that greatly helped me in suppressing hunger. When I made the picture in here many got interested in my diet...30 kilos lost in 4 years...many are ordering my coffee now and they're getting the expected result as I did...

God's Art

The usual view in CALABARZON in my way home.

The view way home is always a treat. I love the cool fresh breeze of air and the relaxing scene of clouds...The sunset in the Philippines is something to watch for. I thank God for his own art...

sECRETLY tAKEN

My office mate  with reading glasses
and paired with magnifying lens in
reading text messages.

My seat mate in office, Ate Lyn hurriedly asked me to take pictures of our office mate Ate Zen...

We laughed in success that we caught her wearing eyeglasses and still with magnifying glass as reinforcement...We posted the pictures in face book as other ways of reading text messages...after a while she laughed...she actually browsed herself in facebook and saw the stolen pictures we posted...

Kat kat the Barbie Doll

This little girl or should I say young big girl Katkat got her bangs cut and with a pink backpack full with toys every time she visits me. She reminds me of Dora the explorer. To my surprise she exclaimed in disappointments when I called her Dora...she is a barbie she claimed...I secretly laughed and asked myself  ...how could a pink back pack, a round face with full bangs signify Barbie!..I just gave in to her....