A walk with God

Thank you God for the gift of life...I know you are with me...


Everyday is a chance to walk with you... Thank you for everything and  for giving me the right attitude in every situation...


You have a plan for me and thank you very much for humbling me... The honing is painful but i trust you oh God. 

bUSY ME

On Sunday I am going to enter graduate school. I am going to study Master’s in Public Administration.

 I promise to do very well and exert   all my efforts into self improvement. My strength is for development and not for my husband’s habit.

My stumbling blocks is going to be my stairs up…I will just step into it... I will be very busy to have time for crying…

God have mercy on me. 

Getting out of hand

Yesterday…

My husband fetched me in the grocery store…as I entered the car I knew he got alcohol effect…for the first time he admitted that he got too many.

 I  just stared in disappointment and inhaled without exhaling a thousand times…trying to control his  speed in driving… thank God we arrived safe at home after numerous lined up accidents. I just let him sleep and did the laundry, brushed and cleaned the bathroom… my tears fell in my cheeks while doing the errands… times that I wish to have a father to discipline my husband. I feel like in a dome with me, myself and I, no one really cares for my situation.

I exhausted myself and dozed to sleep…this is going to be a habit I guess.

Early this morning I learned that   in their drinking session yesterday he was attacked by his drinking mate with a bolo.  The commotion though was controlled by my cousins… His drinking habit is getting out of hand and he might lose his life in irrelevant manner.

 I plan to brush the floor  of our whole house after office. 

Off Beam

I hate occasions, special occasions because I know that I will have to deal with different person.

Yes my loving husband seems to turn into stranger every time alcohol is in him. Considering my phobia with drunken person aggravates the situation. I cry in silence and sometimes in hysteria.

Just last Sunday my neighbor’s child celebrated his 1^st birthday, a license to drink for my husband. I forced him to go home as I noticed his over drinking. He kept on talking about his money spending   in my advantage and it really hurt me. I cried all night and got swollen eyes and because of that I decided not to go to office because my appearance will only reveal my situation.

 It surprised him why I wasn’t able to go to office and asked why I cried. He just laughed and admitted that he got out of control. He then promised over again not to do it but still insisting that he is not doing wrong.

Once I confessed my problem with a friend, I am not really happy with his drinking habits and she took it as if nothing was really wrong. My husband remains calm and sleeps after the drinking spree…though he is a quiet drinker, he drives a vehicle and he had put my life and other’s lives into danger many times because of that. Days after over drinking he will surely have asthma attack, cough and high blood pressure and still he will insist that he is not off beam.  

Oh Lord has mercy on me!

White Lies

In my younger years  my teacher taught me that when a person  ask you “How are You?”, you will answer back “ I am fine, thank you!”. The teaching emanates in my personality.

Every time a person inquires how I am doing ’I graciously say “Oh no worries”.

At this moment I am answering in view of brightening somebody’s day… not to impart the misery I am going through…talking about white lies.

Choice

I am sad…yes I am….but I am right…yes I am… Is it just alright to be right and sad about it? Talking about life choices.

Flores the Mayo

Month of May is month of flowers. Roman catholic celebrates it with flower offering to the image of Virgin Mary and ended with a parade of beauties that signifies the queens and saints. The Santacruzan which signifies the search of Queen Elena for the cross of Jesus is the final event in month of Flowers...
This religious practice, as tourism booster campaign of the province was practiced in Provincial Capitol where I work. Though employees with different faith like me got exemption to participate, my seniors asked me to be well rounded...well rounded means  joining every activity of the institution where I belong...Disaster on my part...My unconventional faith almost affected my professional standing. Though I became very vocal with my own beliefs of not bowing down to any idols and my apprehensions of God's rage with pagan practices ' I met  them half way. I gave in and I joined the event but I did not compromise my religious preference. I was  there like a tourist covering the event and an employee that supportive to the Provincial Capitol.
With due respect the world will be brighter if we accept those who love violet and those that prefers yellow...

Love for Breakfast

Good Morning...It was just last Sunday when I woke up with ready breakfast...a tasty pig knuckles cooked with bamboo shoots, a not that easy recipe to cook especially in the morning... I appreciate my husband's effort to impress me...I also love the food that he cooked...Thank you my husband for this another way of saying I love you!

High School Reunion

What's good with High School reunion is that you got to see old friends and feel the warmth of their usual friendship. The interest on how your classmates did and who among the lovers end up together. What I love with  our latest get together is the laughter that we once again shared and no one asked about careers and success as a person...We just ate together, played games and shared contact numbers... We all had hell of fun... 

Natalia my mother

Every mothers day I post pictures of greetings for my mom and praises for being such a real epitome of  best mother...But I know she didn't know about that. I am the only source of her internet information and I intentionally not show it to her..Why? I myself can't answer why... 

Weight Success

2008 up to present weight monitoring...

               


                                                                                                                                 
              It is no secret, my weight management problem.By just merely drinking water I am gaining pounds... Once my Aunty asked me the reason of staying fat and the question strike me... Little by little I increased my physical activities, then I maintained a certain slimming coffee that greatly helped me in suppressing hunger. When I made the picture in here many got interested in my diet...30 kilos lost in 4 years...many are ordering my coffee now and they're getting the expected result as I did...

God's Art

The usual view in CALABARZON in my way home.

The view way home is always a treat. I love the cool fresh breeze of air and the relaxing scene of clouds...The sunset in the Philippines is something to watch for. I thank God for his own art...

sECRETLY tAKEN

My office mate  with reading glasses
and paired with magnifying lens in
reading text messages.

My seat mate in office, Ate Lyn hurriedly asked me to take pictures of our office mate Ate Zen...

We laughed in success that we caught her wearing eyeglasses and still with magnifying glass as reinforcement...We posted the pictures in face book as other ways of reading text messages...after a while she laughed...she actually browsed herself in facebook and saw the stolen pictures we posted...

Kat kat the Barbie Doll

This little girl or should I say young big girl Katkat got her bangs cut and with a pink backpack full with toys every time she visits me. She reminds me of Dora the explorer. To my surprise she exclaimed in disappointments when I called her Dora...she is a barbie she claimed...I secretly laughed and asked myself  ...how could a pink back pack, a round face with full bangs signify Barbie!..I just gave in to her.... 

cONGRATULATIONS TRISHA

The Proud God Mother...thatsssssssss me.... I want to shout to the world that Trisha won burger competition in New Zealand... 2 pointsbehind only from the National Champion and made her as first runner up... I am truly proud of Trisha for being a good cook... in her younger days in the Philippines we let her cook her own food but with our supervision...its astonishing that she even learned how to bake a tasty bread and got recipe that impressed other nationality... Trisha you brought honor to Filipinos as well...go home and I will have a marching band to salute you.....CONGRATULATIONS TRISHA!

True Colors!

I really appreciate this picture! this was taken at the wedding of my sister in law Sharon. What makes this picture special is the quarrel before this was taken. The alcohol issue that prior to this I asked my husband to bring a truck of beer instead of me as his wife....a picture paints a thousand words but not the real feelings...smile for a picture brings good memories....true memories I hope.

Bless my Dad's Soul!

This year, I missed my cousin Diamel. Being in Dubai she missed the Cemetery event, together the fun of looking up tall apartment kind of tombs.

The widows are always present, never fail to give flowers and candles to their late husbands...

I always present as ever....giving in to my mother's happiness and yearly tradition.

Last year our costume party was a success, no party this year, families who joined the party accounted their bad luck to the affair, not wanting to commemorate again the day of the dead...a western tradition that still taboo in our country.

Printed Job

It is so nice that in my work in Provincial Planning of Batangas Province, I got an opportunity to design and create an important manuscript that will be used by the whole Province. I will forever treasure and keep this important document in my heart. It is on the process of printing now and I am truly excited to have my own copy and show my friends and relatives how proud I am. For me, this one is already a remarkable achievement.

Thank You Lord for the Miracle!

The fence that prevented the car from continuous rolling.

Thank you Lord for the greatest miracle..... I was stunned when my mother told me that my beloved cousins met an accident in New Zealand. My Aunty Bambi and her 3 daughters, Chinnie, Trisha and Abby as the driver. They were cut by a fast car and as a new driver Abby instinctively stepped on the break and moved the wheel. The car hit the fence, the wood flew and land just in place of the wheel that prevented it from another rolling.

Jesus took the wheel for nobody was hurt, no scarce or muscle pain occurred.

God, thank you very much, I will not know what shall happen to me and my family if something bad happened to my God daughters, my much loved cousins and Aunty.

To you Castillo Family in New Zealand…please take a good care of yourselves for me, because I truly love all of you.

That incident made me appreciate the love of God more…a very good testimony of God's love to our family.

Sharon's Wedding

My sister in law finally tie the knot with her boyfriend Jong. As my wedding gift to them, I acted as the official photographer and shall create their wedding album...a new career for me...wedding photographer.

Work Issues!

I inquired to my Aunty Norma about the condition of my sick uncle through text message.

She replied with “ He is fine now and actually driving his jeep.” Relieved in hearing his fine condition, I informed mommy that my uncle is already healed and able to drive his jeep… what surprised me is the reaction of my mom.
Mommy: “Driving? Travelling? Why, where is he going?”
Me: “ Mom, but he is a driver, remember? He is working already!”

I once received a text inquiry, looking for my brother:
Texter: Hello, good morning, where is your brother?
Me: He is not here in the house, already in Hospital!
Texter: What ? in the Hospital? Why, is he sick, what happened to him?
Me: Hello…nothing to panic about… he is respiratory therapist and on duty
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My officemate: Hey, where are you going?
Me: Well, I am on my way up!
My officemate: Wow congratulations, another promotion?
Me: No! Another transfer of location! From first floor to 2nd floor!

Text Away to Far Away!

Walking to her life long dreams, everybody bid her farewell with a smile!

Diamel, after passing series of Nurse's examinations and exerting so much effort in improving her qualifications and become more deserving in good paying job, now strong enough to fly to Dubai. Being my constant companion, I can be a good testimony to her hardships and her grip to lifelong dreams.
Now in her walk to her lifelong dreams, we wish her good fortune and God’s grace.
Grab it Diamel! I am missing you at the same time smiling for you…not need to be emotional now , rather should be excited with your wonderful journey! I will continue to hitch with your van wagon, I hope you don’t mind!

The Devil and the Duck

Forwarded email by a friend worth sharing to you....

There was a little boy visiting his grandparents on their farm.He was given a slingshot to play without in the woods.He practiced in the woods; but he could never hit the target.Getting a little discouraged, he headed back for dinner.As he was walking back he saw Grandma's pet duck.. Just out of impulse, he let the slingshot fly, hit the duck square in the head and killed it. He was shocked and grieved!In a panic, he hid the dead duck in the wood pile; only to see his Sister watching! Sally had seen it all, but she said nothing.After lunch the next day Grandma said, 'Sally, let's wash the dishes'But Sally said, 'Grandma, Johnny told me he wanted to help in the kitchen.'Then she whispered to him, "Remember the duck?'So Johnny did the dishes.Later that day, Grandpa asked if the children wanted to go fishing and Grandma said, 'I'm sorry but I need Sally to help make supper.'Sally just smiled and said, 'well that's all right because Johnny told me he wanted to help?She whispered again, 'Remember the duck?' So Sally went fishing and Johnny stayed to help. After several days of Johnny doing both his chores and Sally's; he finally couldn't stand it any longer.He came to Grandma and confessed that he had killed the duck.Grandma knelt down, gave him a hug and said, 'Sweetheart, I know... You see, I was standing at the window and I saw the whole thing, but because I love you, I forgave you. I was just wondering how long you would let Sally make a slave of you.'

Thought for the day and every day thereafter:Whatever is in your past, whatever you have done... And the devil keeps throwing it up in your face (lying, cheating, debt, fear, bad habits, hatred, anger, bitterness, etc.)....whatever it is... You need to know that: God was standing at the window and He saw the whole thing. He has seen your whole life... He wants you to know that He loves you and that you are forgiven. He's just wondering how long you will let the devil make a slave of you.The great thing about God is that when you ask for forgiveness; He not only forgives you, but He forgets.It is by God's grace and mercy that we are saved.

Go ahead and make the difference in someone's life today.Share this with a friend and always remember:God is at the window! When Jesus died on the cross; He was thinking of you.

Secret and Maturity

My being so transparent with my emotions called attention of my department head. Being my senior, she's more experienced and knowledgeable in working in the Government and in doing public service. After talking to her 'I suddenly realised how young I am and how much more should I know. There are things and plans i should keep to myself as a secret. The ability to keep quiet and secretive is another sign of employee's maturity. I really value the way she talked to me, some words hit me straight to my face, but gave me a knowledge no school can provide.

Public service is a sacrifice of your oneself, bounded by rules every where you go. Courtesy t o everybody at all time should be observed. Be polite to everybody even to hardest kind of People. Everything I will do shall reflect to the office I am serving.

I am a government employee, a public servant and not just me.

The Lambs!

One of the religions here in my country promotes peace and happiness. You could see the members generally happy. Don’t care about people issues, just happy. You do them a favor and they are happy, they praise God and forget about you but they are happy. The goodwill of people to them is because of God, blessings from God and not because of people around that did them a favor, everything from God. The members always smile and contented. They are obedient to the leader and follow his commands. They believe in their head’s interpretation of the Bible, to his dreams and to the whispered knowledge by God to his ears. He artistically converts his likes to Bible verses. You are unlikely to question their knowledge for its Bible based and disobeying means low in faith. You must be open handed and share your financial blessing to be blessed more and more. They got Sunday mass, watching dawn, MWF bible studies, but they are happy. But once you ceased from going to their church, they will accused you of running away from God and seemed waiting for your curse for not following God. No family special occasion is acceptable to absent from Church’s activities, God above all. A practice of saying sorry Lord will be implemented and you will not feel good enough, hitting your conscience and never contented in your status with God…but they are happy…always trying to please God in all their ways. Followers seemed taboo in many ways, but they are happy.
They are happy to know God, happy to have a promise of 2nd life and they are happy to have an assurance of eternal life from Jesus, who died in the cross. Is that really all to be happy?
I felt it odd to be like that, obeying without question, listening to somebody you didn’t really know the credentials and believing of what you can’t see. Seemed numb and in another dimension. But they are really happily blessed. Consoled that if today is bad day, only God knows the reason and they are happy. Amazing! Are you not curious of their being happy too? God is my director! God Bless you more and more as you read my blogs!

Loving is something to do!

Love, love ,love...there is no such thing as "nothing to do"... go love, love love! Not necessarily making love. (LOL) but LOVE!... Happy weekend!

God is my director! God Bless you more and more as you read my blogs!

Love is not apple!

Albert Einstein declared the innocence of gravitation in falling in love. If it's not gravity, so what really is the thing that causes for us to fall in love?
All I know is the crucial participation of first impression in falling in love!
When people meet, first impression is the key that opens the potential good future together, everything you say and do after that will be filtered through it. Seeing as by no means to know when, where and who you will encounter, be always prepared for such situation and do some conscious groundwork to get right first impression.

I think simple smile will going to help. Smiling, will show magnificent aura, acceptance and will appear so attractive and likable even if not that much physically beautiful. This might cause someone to fall in love with you but to stay in love is another issue.

Blocked World!

The world will remain wonderful even in the midst of miseries... Just don't look down, rather look up to our God of mercy and see his wonders. Your perspective is the color that paints your world, don't let troubles block your sight and fade the colors of your world.

Be the painter and not the Model, dictate the color of your world!

Tawa-tawa for Dengue Fever

Herbal medicines are not that utilized here in my place. Though it can be found everywhere, people prefer over the counter medicines from drugstores, medicines with very good advertisements and name recall. However when a Television Program discuss medical property of a certain plant, with human testimonies, though still no Medical studies and proven healing properties, everyone acquire interest, fuzz around and cramming to search for the plant.

One of those is the so called Tawa-Tawa herbal plant or asthma weed. It’s like Julia Roberts after the Pretty Woman movie, box office hit. The plant was discovered to cure the fatal dengue fever and saved many lives of dengue victims. Well, it does not really fight dengue virus but it is perceived to promote the development of blood platelets and softens the effect of the dengue virus. It has certain property within that believed to stabilize the membrane, preventing internal bleeding and aids in healing process while body is coping to fight the viral infection of dengue.

I personally experienced the healing property of the plant that scattered around our house like wild grass. One of my cousins who was confined and with dropping number of platelets, after drinking tawa-tawa tea, astoundingly survived the danger of dengue. Once a child got fever, a tawa-tawa tea will be the first aid. My other cousin Arjhon who got slight fever and stomach pain were confined in hospital. As suspected dengue victim, almost a bucket of tawa-tawa tea was forced to him without the knowledge of the Doctor. No significant findings other than fatty liver after series of medical test, no dengue and no nothing but still stomach pains. After a week of confinement, we found out that he only suffered dyspepsia or indigestion due to over eating (maybe aggravated by our secret medicine. LOL).

If we just further analyzed the first symptoms and not panicked for dengue, the worst condition will be just a piece of over the counter pill. People tend to overdo it; too much eulogy for Tawa-tawa plant could also be dangerous.

More can survive from Volcano explosion

than stomach blast.
Everything in excess is really bad.

This plant could be just around your house. Tawa-tawa plant is like a wild grass, sometimes reddish in color, very small leaves and sometimes flat in the ground.